Time for an Update

This will pretty much be a list because time is not likely to permit much more than that and because I’ve been doing a pretty good job of processing as I go reducing my need to process here.  Soooo…here’s the recent developments:

I think I’ve blogged since I got married, but I’m not even sure that’s happened.  My name is Pam Church.  I’m live married on weekends and try to figure out how to deal with the “double life” during the week when I live at the house I own an hour away from my husband and continue to live in much the same way I did before I got married during the week.  This arrangement is temporary, but how long temporary means is totally unknown.  At some point in time I’ll get this site, my twitter, my email, the names on my credit cards…switched over.  For now my driver’s license SS card, passport, and school pay checks are good enough.

A situation at school has given me the opportunity to clarify, acknowledge, make public…some issues of the heart, expecially in the area of my two “daughters”.  It’s been hard, scary, and incredibly freeing.  Once I get the response letter in my district file, probably on Monday, my heart will be out there for my critics to see and they can do what they want with it.  That doesn’t mean I’ll get stupid, just that I’m not making some of the fear based mistakes I made last time around.  It feels good.  Thanks to the older daughter, the other mom, and the pink home church crowd for their written support and to the younger daughter, the older daughter again, and the LIFE 2 crowd for confronting me about not just being who I am.  My husband, biological family, and focus family got an ear full…thanks ya’all.  There are a few thank yous that I’ll choose to not publish because I’m still a little worried about the gestapo stumbling on my internet sites.  Couldn’t have  done this past few weeks without you.

Largely in response to the fun things I’m doing at school and the parania about just letting people do what their good at and leaving them alone, I’m also going to be getting a counseling degree.  The approval for my idea is unanamous.  My only concerns are spending $14,000 and dealing with TSPC.  I’ve found an on line program that will allow me to work at my own pace and have had to reconcile a related issue in order to find a supervisor for practicum work.  The other issue is this will probably extend my career and I don’t know how that fits in with the newly married’s couple plan to build on acreage south of here at some point in time. 

Sooo, some things have settle for me, but I’m still day by day and moment by moment and I think that’s good.  It means I have to listen…and that’s good.

Which reminds me of the other major paridigm shift I’m undergoing.  I’m learning to see myself as a Paul, or Peter, or Erin on Freedom Writers, or Tolstory.  I really believe the verses that say we will do greater things than these and go to all the world and preach the gospel and I will be with you in all things.

Okay, I think that’s all and that’s me for now.

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